Today I came so tired from office and couldn't even think of anything. When I went to Costco for shopping, i saw many bottles were tempting me :) .... lets see this control after Jan 11th.
Monday, December 22, 2014
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Day #13 Cricket + Athidhi
Today, I played a cricket match as part of TCA (Tennisball Cricket Association) in SFO. After our winning match, we all went to lunch buffet in Athidhi. Special is that they provide free beer for lunch buffet. This is one of our regular spot mostly after our cricket match.
I was hesitating a bit when team decided to go there because i thought i would get tempted to drink.
After I went there, I was in dilemma whether I can have only one. But finally I've made up my mind not to have it today. My team was surprised! but I was proud to cross this tough day!
I was hesitating a bit when team decided to go there because i thought i would get tempted to drink.
After I went there, I was in dilemma whether I can have only one. But finally I've made up my mind not to have it today. My team was surprised! but I was proud to cross this tough day!
Saturday, December 20, 2014
Day #12 Back home
From early morning I started helping another friend for his moving so whole day spent outside and came home tonight. This night also went without drink feel...
Friday, December 19, 2014
Day #11 Universal Day
Today I went to Universal and drove a long way to home so didn't even think about the drinks!
Thursday, December 18, 2014
Day #10 LEGO land
Initially I thought this park was just for kids but during the last rides I was mesmerized with the sets. Had a fun day. No Drinks + Smoke day.
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Day #9 Disney Adventure Theme Park
Today I went to Disney adventure theme park but I would say went to both theme and adventure parks today, just to cover all remaining rides. It was fantastic day.
No alcohol + smoke day.
No alcohol + smoke day.
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
Day #8 San Diego Safari Park
Today I went to San Diego Safari Park. Since it was raining in the afternoon, I didn't even think of drinks but I thought if i had smoke at this raining, it would have been great.
Again No drinks + no smoke day.
Again No drinks + no smoke day.
Monday, December 15, 2014
Day #7 San Diego Sea World
Today I went to San Diego Sea World. I've seen couple of ppl having beer, hmmm tempted me.... if not with my family, I would have taken for sure.
7 days crossed no smoking + no drinks.
7 days crossed no smoking + no drinks.
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Friday, December 12, 2014
Day #4 Busy Day
Since I was preparing myself with long family vacation, I didn't have a chance to think of Smoke + Drinks.
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Day #3 Green Tea
Esp, warm water + honey + green tea is amazing taste.
No smoke + No Drinks today!
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Day #2 Continues
I had a mindset of having light drinks but didn't get much tempted as i was busy with my work.
My wife said 'just empty your packet before you put clothes for laundry' :) and she gave this another piece of shit...
I need to throw it away tomorrow.
Also I had couple of red bull today just to change the taste.
I still didn't go to gym. I'll try at least from tomorrow.
Anyway, we are expecting big storm tomorrow so don't think I can go to office.
My wife said 'just empty your packet before you put clothes for laundry' :) and she gave this another piece of shit...
Also I had couple of red bull today just to change the taste.
I still didn't go to gym. I'll try at least from tomorrow.
Anyway, we are expecting big storm tomorrow so don't think I can go to office.
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Day #1 - Why I should stop drinking
Till 30 mins back, I never had an intention of writing this blog.
But why now? I was severely thinking of quitting/controlling my very bad habit of drinking alcohol. This is because i have a series of bad incidents throughout my life because of alcohol which i want to forget but i couldn't. After my marriage, I went to my brother-in-law's company anniversary party and gone unconscious due to high alcohol consumption. Finally they put me in a taxi and made me slept in my friend house. That's my shameful incident of my life.
Did I quit after that? Nah! It continued. I was in Chennai that time so we had party once in a month. At least that okay.
After I came to US, this bad behavior became my UGLIEST behavior of my life. Used to drink almost everyday when I was staying single. My US friends and their family know me very well as alcoholic then.
Esp Friday evening is always set for drinks.
My family came to US. Beautiful and Friendly wife, cute son. She didn't fight me for quitting drinking thinking that i would be in control and not alcoholic. She wasn't aware that i actually became alcoholic after i came to US. In fact i also didn't realize myself.
She allowed me having drinks once in a week. That was the time i started taking advantage of this 'permission' to consume more alcohol. Well it went on for more than a year and my wife was pregnant again! To help us during the time, my in-law came to US. I was thinking that i should stop drinking alcohol at least when she is here. I thought myself okay its time to live non-alcohol life for 3 months.
Did I stop for 3 months!? Nah! After 2 weeks of her arrival, I couldn't control and went out for drinks and came late to home. Even though my wife knows this, she didn't expose this to her mom. After couple of weeks, i dared to had drinks at home after they slept in another room. What a shameful and uncontrollable habit.
Last night as usual i had 600 ml vodka with redbull and slept around 5:30 am. Today morning my wife warned me for this behavior and she worried that her mom also might be aware of this.
Should I still be drinking?
Why not? If i'm gentle drinker, there will not be any problem at all, but If i start drinking, I'll also go for high. I couldn't say NO to myself even for drinking also.
What did I do to control drinks? Tried various things, concentrate reading, going to gym, sleep early. but nothing worked out after few days.
I think I didn't have continuous 15 days without drinks in the last 3 years. Am I addict? yes and i'm trying to come out of it.
How? thinking of taking body building seriously. If I started loving my body, i'll definitely quit drinking.
Initial goal => Starting from today, i'm going to have non-alcoholic days till my family leaves to Chennai, which is 45 days from today.
Hah...who's going to read this blog anyway? I don't care...this is just my confession to unknown god/person.
UPDATE : As a start, I threw away these shits...
But why now? I was severely thinking of quitting/controlling my very bad habit of drinking alcohol. This is because i have a series of bad incidents throughout my life because of alcohol which i want to forget but i couldn't. After my marriage, I went to my brother-in-law's company anniversary party and gone unconscious due to high alcohol consumption. Finally they put me in a taxi and made me slept in my friend house. That's my shameful incident of my life.
Did I quit after that? Nah! It continued. I was in Chennai that time so we had party once in a month. At least that okay.
After I came to US, this bad behavior became my UGLIEST behavior of my life. Used to drink almost everyday when I was staying single. My US friends and their family know me very well as alcoholic then.
Esp Friday evening is always set for drinks.
My family came to US. Beautiful and Friendly wife, cute son. She didn't fight me for quitting drinking thinking that i would be in control and not alcoholic. She wasn't aware that i actually became alcoholic after i came to US. In fact i also didn't realize myself.
She allowed me having drinks once in a week. That was the time i started taking advantage of this 'permission' to consume more alcohol. Well it went on for more than a year and my wife was pregnant again! To help us during the time, my in-law came to US. I was thinking that i should stop drinking alcohol at least when she is here. I thought myself okay its time to live non-alcohol life for 3 months.
Did I stop for 3 months!? Nah! After 2 weeks of her arrival, I couldn't control and went out for drinks and came late to home. Even though my wife knows this, she didn't expose this to her mom. After couple of weeks, i dared to had drinks at home after they slept in another room. What a shameful and uncontrollable habit.
Last night as usual i had 600 ml vodka with redbull and slept around 5:30 am. Today morning my wife warned me for this behavior and she worried that her mom also might be aware of this.
Should I still be drinking?
Why not? If i'm gentle drinker, there will not be any problem at all, but If i start drinking, I'll also go for high. I couldn't say NO to myself even for drinking also.
What did I do to control drinks? Tried various things, concentrate reading, going to gym, sleep early. but nothing worked out after few days.
I think I didn't have continuous 15 days without drinks in the last 3 years. Am I addict? yes and i'm trying to come out of it.
How? thinking of taking body building seriously. If I started loving my body, i'll definitely quit drinking.
Initial goal => Starting from today, i'm going to have non-alcoholic days till my family leaves to Chennai, which is 45 days from today.
Hah...who's going to read this blog anyway? I don't care...this is just my confession to unknown god/person.
UPDATE : As a start, I threw away these shits...